It has been one of these days.
Today, I have spent much of the day trying to learn how to make a simple spreadsheet on Excel. This is not the first time I have tried to do this. I have spent many hours in in the past in the attempt. I have always failed to master this skill.
I have seen people do this, seemingly effortlessly, in just a few minutes. So, I'm thinking, "This cannot be beyond me. Lots of people of all ages know how to do this. It can't be that hard, can it?"
I really don't want to give up again. However, at this moment, I have to resist the urge to smash this PC to smithereens. I am so frustrated. So, before the day is over I am going to rant! One more time!
Mike gave me some advice in the few moments he could talk. He always wants to teach me to understand the concept of what I am doing, so that I will be able to do it again. I think that is good. I want to understand how it works. I rarely catch on the first time things are explained to me. At least, in matters technical or mathematical.
I need to learn both visually and kinetically. And, many things have to be explained to me several times until I get it. Not everyone has the patience to work with someone like me. I get lost if a term is used that I don't understand. If I am unable to stop them at the first point of confusion, anything thereafter is gobbledygook.
Matt said he would call tomorrow. Or at least I think that's what he said. Our conversation was via computer on Windows Messenger. I was sitting here in front of this blasted thing, when a little pop up window (the little blue man) showed me that Matt was on line.
He was at a Starbucks playing with his new laptop. He sent me a picture taken by the camera.
Tonight, a young man in our Spiritual Family called regarding a message I had left earlier about something else. He asked how I was doing. I told him that I was frustrated, and why. This young man works with computers all day. He was sympathetic. He told me that this program is not that simple. And, it isn't all that easy to learn. Especially for some of us.
Then, he said something really nice. He told me that he really thought it was great that I am trying to learn how to do this. He saw that I am trying to stretch. He suggested some books that he thought might help. And, where to get them.
I will get the books for reference. But, darn it. You would think that someone of normal intelligence could figure this procedure out! Without loosing days in the attempt. I keep telling myself that it will be worth the time in the long run. But, I really do have other things to do! Curse*@*#"+~#*!
Oh. And, will someone tell me why all of a sudden, when I left click my mouse, everything is going much faster? I am spending way too much time just trying to back up.
Oh, my Gosh! In entering this blog and linking to stuff I just looked up on Google I may have found something to help me that is not loaded into this computer. Maybe I can do this after all.
Posted by Judi at November 15, 2003 11:21 PM | TrackBack